Erasing Narcissism..

As a child I was probably not taught how to respect myself or others due to Narcissism in my family.  As I found that to be difficult to deal with and not understand the person I had become, I found a strong need to please people and become outstanding and an overachiever.  It seemded to work for a while, actually for many years until it didn't work any longer.  The new remedy was to fit in or unempower myself to be liked.  If people would just see me as a nobody then maybe I would not be attacked or confronted with anger from others that I was 'too good'.  The final straw that broke the camel's back was to set up a situation that ended so many parts of my life, resulting to living in the back of a pickup truck, homeless, and unemployed for the better part of ten years.  It became a way to minimize my importance and for sure now to reject any signs of Narcissism that could still be a part of my being.

With all that said I found a love for myself and a deep respect for me and my character.  People still wanted to trash me which I had allowed and taught people to do in the past but now I had made decisions to take the blocks down and allow love, support, and income in.  I am sure this will take some by surprise, but I don't care. I am happy to be back on the road again.